I’ve been away from here for what seems like forever. I know it hasn’t been that long, it just feels like it. My brother’s passing is one reason. The other is due to…
…being without a keyboard for the past 5 days. It’s not the first time I have not had a keyboard to use because one has gone bad on me. It really sucks.
Darcel was showing me something on her computer and I knocked over a cup of apple juice…mostly onto the keyboard. Since it was my fault, I gave her mine. I did an external cleaning and draining; removing the keys and cleaning underneath the keys in slim hopes this would salvage a sticky situation.
After that was done, there were only about five keys that didn’t work…this is into day 2. So now I decide to take the keyboard apart and do some deep cleaning…day 3, it’s all back together and now even more keys are not working.
So now it’s time for a new board. I used the on screen keyboard but that was slow and tedious. It was ok for logging into sites, but using it for writing was definitely out of the question.
I was really beginning to miss writing. I have had a lot of thoughts going on inside my head, but it does feel different now…
One thing I am doing is updating my blog with a couple of new pages. I’m going to have my poems on a separate page and do an about me page. I think I’m going to add a short stories page also.
I think about my brother. I miss his presence. I read this poem to remind me that love really does help to bring that calm, that peace…and comfort. My brother’s death was really hard on my mom. I’m sure she wasn’t expecting to lose one of her children, as do many parents. I talked to my mom a few times since, but Thursday night when we talked, I apologized to her. I was hard on her when I got the news because he was so far into the illness. I didn’t realize how much stress she was under. When I think of my mom, I think of the strong woman I have always known….not thinking of how it was for her to watch all of this unfold. We had a good time talking. Actually, I was doing most of the talking. It was good to hear her laugh.
I haven’t been in much of a poetic mood lately and I hope that goes away sooner than later. I have a few poems in draft that I could post, and I will over time. In a way I feel numb when I think of writing poetry. That luster, the zeal seems to be gone. We’ll see how long it takes to return. I really want that back.
I’m looking forward to a lot of good to be coming into our lives. Work hard while we wait…and expect…I’m confident.
So the journey continues….new memories created and the unexpected awaits.
Live life and love it…it’s the only one we have. Learn from the past, enjoy the present, and look forward to the future.