I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately about many different things. Some of it making me very angry, some making me think even more, some giving me feelings of despair, and some giving me answers.
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It’s funny sometimes how things work out or just plain Divine intervention…a wake up so to speak. Any number of people can tell you the same thing over time but when one person speaks it, you finally hear it. You actually stop to breath, and it feels so fresh. It puts things into perspective again. That happened today. So that coupled with what I have and haven’t been doing brings a welcomed collision.
What I haven’t been doing is finishing some projects I started, but that did give me time to take the time to review what I have been doing with my designs and some other things I could be doing. So that got me started.
I have been busy coming up with some new designs and was in the process of putting products on the site when the server crashed. I did get a few items up but not what I really wanted because I didn’t have the images in my basket on the site yet.
So I’m actually pecking this out instead doing that. But this is one of those things I haven’t been doing and has bothered me more than I should have let it. One of those things that I have struggled with the past few weeks. I haven’t felt like writing or doing much of anything on the social network (which I have trouble with anyway), discouragement settling in and getting a pretty good grip.
Then out of nowhere, the words come to light and they shook me. A much needed breath of fresh air. So thankful that it finally clicked. It just took one.
If you checked out my post from yesterday, you saw that I was at the beginning of organizing my piles of screws, nuts and bolts, washers and an assortment of other items that has accumulated over the years.
These are the items I had within eyesight….I’m sure more will turn up shortly. How many phases do I have ahead of me?….not a clue.
There is not much to say about the time between my last day at work up until now but I will bring you up to speed. I’ll start with moving day. Samuel just love trucks so when he had a chance to sit behind the wheel of the moving truck, he wasn’t about to past that up.
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The move itself took much longer than I thought it would and longer than it really should have. Yes we were two families moving to two different locations but we had more stuff coming here that I remember having.
After realizing I’m putting myself through more than needed right now, I have decided to get back to basics. I’m going to discontinue the meme and concentrate on what I do….just be me. Maybe some place down the road I will revive the meme on a monthly basis, but now I must concentrate on what is at hand.
I’m not as far ahead as I would like to be designing my T-shirts and other products, but I am making progress.
I finally retrieved the pictures from my camera which means I can finally share them.
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Winter is surely upon us as it stayed in the 30’s but it felt much colder with the wind. I had a hard time keeping my hands warm, as is the case with each passing winter.
My hands have taken a beating over the years; some from my own young, not really thinking what long term effects playing in the snow year after year with no gloves, might have. I’m sure I am dealing in some way with that.
I have almost always worked outside during my years of employment.
Today was brisk. I was dressed for it but it’s tough to keep the hands warm continually and I can’t do what needs to be done in thick heavy gloves.
So I take a few minutes to warm the hands.
You know what?…I will take these temps for winter time any day.
Again I am reminded that we don’t get snow here.
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I think I will miss that at some point. I have always liked the snow. I would love to sit in a window and watch it fall. I was fascinated at how it seemed to just appear out of nowhere from the nighttime sky, the street lights setting the stage for the wind dance; that’s when the snow would swirl and dance in the wind before giving way to gravity…that was always my favorite snowfalls to experience.
I’m listening to the radio right now…R&B…it’s perfect for what I like to do when I’m posting or designing. It sets the mood…I can really relax and unwind…let my emotions of the day slowly drain…
Speaking of designing, I haven’t been. Not a stitch. Not a swirl. Not a thing.
That did a lot for me. More than I had thought…until now. Now I know I was too engulfed into my work. I learned something from that…I can still have the zeal, but I can also take time for me.
I just feel that if I’m not doing something, then nothing is getting done. Does that make sense to you?
I’m going to be my own MONSTER. That’s gonna suck…I’ll have to keep an eye out for that.
So I’ll have to take a look in the mirror and ask myself…