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A LOT Of Thinking

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately about many different things. Some of it making me very angry, some making me think even more, some giving me feelings of despair, and some giving me answers. 

Early in my life, I had been taught to take responsibility for what I do and I have done that for the most part. I am far from being anywhere near perfect and I acknowledge that. I have made many mistakes that I take the blame for. I hurt when I hurt others.

When others make mistakes that affect me, I try to remember that they too are human and mistakes happen. But when the same types of mistakes happen on a consistent basis I have a problem with that. I know we are suppose to forgive, but the Lord knows I have trouble with consistent mistakes. When and where is the line drawn? I know too we are to forgive at all times.

In this skin that is humanity, it is very difficult…all too easy to hate those that do these things to us. But in the end, it is I who will suffer because of not forgiving. I will be the one whose bones will ache and drawn into a state of depression and despair. It is my mind that will be filled with bitterness that is best used for the betterment of my life and for those around me while they that choose to live a life of doing what they do continue to do what they do, whether knowingly or not. 

The importance of forgiving is just that…very important. The effects of harboring unforgiving thoughts is far more damaging than one can imagine. It has no benefits that will be good for me. 

I am really struggling at the moment and I know I need to turn this around. I need to stop looking at what has happened over the past few years and move on. I have a lot of positive things going on and I am thankful for that.

Humility is hard to swallow. Perfection was given only to the one true God and He said that we are to forgive because He knows that if we don’t…it is we who will suffer…and we are to leave the rest to Him. 


It Just Takes One

It’s funny sometimes how things work out or just plain Divine intervention…a wake up so to speak. Any number of people can tell you the same thing over time but when one person speaks it, you finally hear it. You actually stop to breath, and it feels so fresh. It puts things into perspective again. That happened today. So that coupled with what I have and haven’t been doing brings a welcomed collision. 

What I haven’t been doing is finishing some projects I started, but that did give me time to take the time to review what I have been doing with my designs and some other things I could be doing. So that got me started.

I have been busy coming up with some new designs and was in the process of putting products on the site when the server crashed. I did get a few items up but not what I really wanted because I didn’t have the images in my basket on the site yet. 

So I’m actually pecking this out instead doing that. But this is one of those things I haven’t been doing and has bothered me more than I should have let it. One of those things that I have struggled with the past few weeks. I haven’t felt like writing or doing much of anything on the social network (which I have trouble with anyway), discouragement settling in and getting a pretty good grip.

Then out of nowhere, the words come to light and they shook me. A much needed breath of fresh air. So thankful that it finally clicked. It just took one.



As I Tweeted Earlier Today

Some of you already know that I replaced the oxygen sensor on my van earlier today. At first I didn’t think I would get the old one out. A piece of cake is what I thought, especially since the van was driven which would heat the part enough….so I thought. Even with vise grips it would not budge. I almost gave up because I didn’t want to damage the old sensor in case I couldn’t get it out. So I go old school and apply heat directly to the connection with a propane tank….put the grips back on it, gave it a twist, and bingo! I just started thanking God right away because He gave me all that I needed to get it loose….patience and time to think it through without getting flustered. Image
After the new one was in place, I didn’t wait to start it up…I wanted to see if it was going to be any different during starting and idling. So I fire it up and it didn’t start right away, but it didn’t drag either. I could tell right away….seconds after it was running, that it had made a difference. It idled quietly, but when I placed it into drive it was rough, as if nothing had changed.
So I take it out for a spin. Once I hit the road and accelerate, it had more power. It didn’t drag during acceleration and I was really happy about that. I decide to take it on the interstate and on the entrance ramp it had more get up and go. I was able to change lanes faster. Now I’ll have to be careful not to drive it like a race car or I won’t be saving any fuel still. We’ll see what happens this week.
Oh yeah…I also bought a grease gun and lubed the front end today…that made a big difference too.
Yeah…some of you know about that too. 
For those who don’t, you can catch up here: This Takes Me Back 
                                                                 This Is My Yesterday
Reggie

Phase 1 Is Done

If you checked out my post from yesterday, you saw that I was at the beginning of organizing my piles of screws, nuts and bolts, washers and an assortment of other items that has accumulated over the years.







These are the items I had within eyesight….I’m sure more will turn up shortly. How many phases do I have ahead of me?….not a clue.


Reggie  

On Moving Day

There is not much to say about the time between my last day at work up until now but I will bring you up to speed. I’ll start with moving day. Samuel just love trucks so when he had a chance to sit behind the wheel of the moving truck, he wasn’t about to past that up.

ok….i got this!

hmmm this might be a tight turn…

The move itself took much longer than I thought it would and longer than it really should have. Yes we were two families moving to two different locations but we had more stuff coming here that I remember having.


We took our time and moved in what was supposed to be two days, but dragged into four….don’t ask. Boxes were moved, unpacked, shoved to one side, moved to another, stacked and re-stacked. 

Things slowly began to come together. Reg took care of his room pretty quick and I didn’t mind taking care of the rest; so while TheWife worked I concentrated on getting key areas (kitchen, living room, bedroom, and bath) set up so each room had a spot that could be used as everything else was put together. We finally got a chance to really attack the living room and get the love seat off of the couch….I had to stack them because it was so tight in here.

That time spanned the last week in March and a little less than two weeks into April. That’s basically the move in a nutshell. I’m not sure what I’ll have next. Until then…..WhatrUWorkinOn?   


Back To Basics

After realizing I’m putting myself through more than needed right now, I have decided to get back to basics. I’m going to discontinue the meme and concentrate on what I do….just be me. Maybe some place down the road I will revive the meme on a monthly basis, but now I must concentrate on what is at hand.


I’m not as far ahead as I would like to be designing my T-shirts and other products, but I am making progress.

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I finally retrieved the pictures from my camera which means I can finally share them. 

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Time management is my biggest problem right now. I have time to get things done but in the end, I’m out of time with little done in certain areas. Once I get that in order things should be getting easier and less stressful for me.

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I can’t believe I went this long without posting something. This won’t happen again.


Winter’s Time

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Winter is surely upon us as it stayed in the 30’s but it felt much colder with the wind. I had a hard time keeping my hands warm, as is the case with each passing winter.


My hands have taken a beating over the years; some from my own young, not really thinking what long term effects playing in the snow year after year with no gloves, might have. I’m sure I am dealing in some way with that. 


I have almost always worked outside during my years of employment. 


Today was brisk. I was dressed for it but it’s tough to keep the hands warm continually and I can’t do what needs to be done in thick heavy gloves. 


So I take a few minutes to warm the hands. 


You know what?…I will take these temps for winter time any day.


Again I am reminded that we don’t get snow here.

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I think I will miss that at some point. I have always liked the snow. I would love to sit in a window and watch it fall. I was fascinated at how it seemed to just appear out of nowhere from the nighttime sky, the street lights setting the stage for the wind dance; that’s when the snow would swirl and dance in the wind before giving way to gravity…that was always my favorite snowfalls to experience. 


I’m listening to the radio right now…R&B…it’s perfect for what I like to do when I’m posting or designing. It sets the mood…I can really relax and unwind…let my emotions of the day slowly drain…


Speaking of designing, I haven’t been. Not a stitch. Not a swirl. Not a thing.


That did a lot for me. More than I had thought…until now. Now I know I was too engulfed into my work. I learned something from that…I can still have the zeal, but I can also take time for me. 


I just feel that if I’m not doing something, then nothing is getting done. Does that make sense to you? 


I’m going to be my own MONSTER. That’s gonna suck…I’ll have to keep an eye out for that. 


So I’ll have to take a look in the mirror and ask myself…

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