I have been wanting to post for a few days now and I have talked myself out of it several times. No, this won’t be a boo hoo, sad sob post, but an acknowledgement. One that I have known for as long as I can remember. It’s in the title of the post.
As an example.
On some of my morning walks, I walk past a construction site. Right around Thanksgiving, I’m walking and look up and noticed pumpkins on top of a hill. The type of hill that is formed at a lot of sites as they move soil in preparation for the work, or soil that is hauled in.
Now, for one of the things I’m really bad at, not capturing the moment, I smiled and kept walking and for several days since. But as December rolled in, something must have dropped on my head because I took a couple photos.
It seems different now than when I first spotted them up there and could be why I’ve talked myself out of writing the post. But what I find more intriguing is the fact that either these construction workers put them up there or someone else did and they are still there.
In the end, it’s really nothing but pumpkins on a hill at a construction site. But at the same time, it really is…something.
Sometimes I think I have to justify being critical about what I do or want to do to achieve the goals I have set. It has not been easy for me to push forward to reach for that gold ring as the wheel goes around. I think of the setbacks and how hard it has been for me to regroup, breath, forgive AND forget. It is so hard to keep a frame of mind to NOT let things keep me from accomplishing what I know I am capable of doing. It is so easy to listen to that voice telling me to give up, quit, it’s not worth it, OR that it can’t be done. Telling me that no one really cares or wants what I have to offer. Sometimes I start feeling and believing that. I do want to stop and I do hear myself say those words, breathing sighs of discouragement. Yes it is easy to drop it all after losing so much in preparing for this moment in my life…when just a few short years ago I was tool ready and now starting from scratch. I could let these emotions fester like a sore and destroy me, but then I’m asked if I still make Shadowbox Clocks and I say yes and now find myself custom designing an 8 x 8. I do have a lot of things going on and I do intend to keep moving on and NOT giving up. Yes I am hard on myself at times but it’s a good thing. As much as I would like to post on a regular basis, I’s getting busy for me and it may get quiet here, but…
I had taken an unannounced break from writing and it actually felt pretty good…it wasn’t even planned, but I guess I needed it.
Although I haven’t been writing, I have been busy doing other things. I’m trying to keep my website and blog distinct from each other, making this one personal and the other strictly business…that shouldn’t be too hard huh? Of course after a little thought, this was my launching pad for where I am today. I’m sure I can come up with a good balance.
Here are three frames I put together and I’m pretty sure I know what is going in each one….they may not even be clocks….
Not counting the frames above, I’m about to start a custom clock for someone.
On another note, my veggies are coming along rather well…the bell peppers are getting huge and I’ve had a few tomatoes and they are pretty tasty. I’ll have to get updated pics soon.
June 1st marks the ending of the first six months of 2012. Thinking ahead….I wonder what all of those superstitious people are gonna do about next year…..anyway, my mind goes to all of the resolutions that have been broken or never made it out of the gate. It’s been awhile since I’ve done the resolution things….very long time.
I penned the poster below November 12, 2011. I’d have to do a little more digging to see when it was first published on my blog or my CafePress website. It may sound cliche but I do get inspired when I read it. I wrote it in a way that whoever reads this, can apply it to themselves….the question at the end?….I ask myself, what have I done since the last time I read it. Sometimes I am so angry with me because I’ve missed easy ops, but I know there are more doors ahead. There are times when I muster a smile or two just knowing I am able to even try to pursue dreams. I frustrate myself by trying to do too much at one time….multi-multitasking. I love it when I get that giddy feeling.
I’m more determined than ever to reach for goals, achieve them and reach for more. I’m not going to wait until the beginning of the year to start my new year. Right now I feel as if I’m making that turn….you know the feeling….you’ve been on THAT road for such a long time you can tell that the scenery is starting to change. It’s such a good feeling.
I did edit the wording on this new poster…I took out the words “have to” on the third line and replaced them with the word “can” and did a little realignment with the rest.
I’m going to be posting pictures in a couple of weeks and I would very much your advice, opinion, input. I’m going to have a few small giveaways during the month of June so it would be a good idea to tell your friends to like my Facebook page. That’s a few of what’s up and coming….gonna ride this wave as far as it will take me.
If you’d like to see this in a different flavor you can go here.
If you checked out my post from yesterday, you saw that I was at the beginning of organizing my piles of screws, nuts and bolts, washers and an assortment of other items that has accumulated over the years.
These are the items I had within eyesight….I’m sure more will turn up shortly. How many phases do I have ahead of me?….not a clue.
There is not much to say about the time between my last day at work up until now but I will bring you up to speed. I’ll start with moving day. Samuel just love trucks so when he had a chance to sit behind the wheel of the moving truck, he wasn’t about to past that up.
ok….i got this!
hmmm this might be a tight turn…
The move itself took much longer than I thought it would and longer than it really should have. Yes we were two families moving to two different locations but we had more stuff coming here that I remember having.
We took our time and moved in what was supposed to be two days, but dragged into four….don’t ask. Boxes were moved, unpacked, shoved to one side, moved to another, stacked and re-stacked.
Things slowly began to come together. Reg took care of his room pretty quick and I didn’t mind taking care of the rest; so while TheWife worked I concentrated on getting key areas (kitchen, living room, bedroom, and bath) set up so each room had a spot that could be used as everything else was put together. We finally got a chance to really attack the living room and get the love seat off of the couch….I had to stack them because it was so tight in here.
That time spanned the last week in March and a little less than two weeks into April. That’s basically the move in a nutshell. I’m not sure what I’ll have next. Until then…..WhatrUWorkinOn?
I’m not sure where this one is headed but I’m throwing stuff on the wall to see what sticks.
Yesterday I was feeling awful…just bad awful. I thought I was gonna puke but that never happened, so I had to deal with the other end. I was actually feeling fine early on, I had some fresh from the oven cinnamon rolls and not long after that it was all down hill. Those things stayed on my stomach for hours….churning, not digesting. All I could do was lay down and sleep. I had crackers and ginger ale later in the afternoon…I had all of two crackers.
As the evening wore on, I was feeling a little better but still unable to eat anything of substance. I was due back at work today and I could tell that I wasn’t going to be 100 percent but I got through with crackers and ginger ale. By 2:00 I could tell the end was about there. I stopped on the way home to get chicken noodle soup to start the system slowly…along with crackers and ginger ale.
See?…told ya. I don’t have much.
Hey, take a look at one of my latest designs. Don’t laugh at my house, I drew it myself.
Yes, it’s on the website but I’m think I’m going to take the background away for the t-shirts. If you hop over there you’ll see what I mean.