Love IS hard but it is the only glue that bonds a relationship through the moments that are trying, for one or both in love. I’m sure thoughts and feelings of is it really worth it enter any relationship. That is only answered in the heart. How much can it take? How long does it sustain strength to endure…ensure…it will have what it desires, needs, wants in fulfillment and satisfaction.
Tenderly strong is the heart. Powerfully weak as well. Baffling it is by the decisions made because of it. It is that organ tied so in touch with that emotion called love….that feeling….embedded by the Master of love.
So fragile it is in the center of it all…in body and relationships.
All it wants?…to be loved. It’s that asking too much?
Valentines Day is next month and will be here before you know it. If you haven’t noticed the link to my CafePress store is gone from my sidebar and that is because I have closed it.
I’m focusing my efforts now into my Etsy Shop which is now open. I currently have three items and working on another as of this moment but stopped so I could get this message out. I will do my best to keep you updated when new items are added. I will add a link to my Etsy Shop on the sidebar soon.
As mentioned earlier, Valentines Day is approaching and many of you are familiar with The Bottomless Heart I designed a couple of years ago. That is the first card in my shop for Valentines Day but can be given for other occasions as well such as anniversary, birthday or just because.
I made some changes from the original design which are more simplistic. It still features the story line behind the design of the heart which is your expression of love and time shared together, with the one you love.
Here is a photo of the card’s front. Please visit my Etsy Shop to see the rest.
Tomorrow is TheWife’s birthday and she had the day off from work today wanted to spend it with TheGrands and Darcel to celebrate.
when we got there, we were greeted with hugs.
After awhile we went to ‘the beach’…it’s not really a beach but a place where you can be close to the water and enjoy some ‘quiet time’…except for the cars and trucks zooming by on the freeway. If you zone yourself, you don’t even notice the sounds….and the kids love it.
My knee was bothering me so I couldn’t do much walking and stayed behind while they walked ahead.
There is an area for sitting and it also has a bell and a plaque. Some of the bricks honors cancer survivors, those who lost the fight and family members giving them remembrance.
It’s called “Mary Ellen’s Bell”. After I took the pictures, I rang the bell and remembered my dad and my brother. The emotions that flooded me caught me by surprise in a way…I sat in silence and read the names and comments by others that were beneath my feet on the commemorative bricks of the survivors and loved ones who lost their beloved.
Sitting there gives relevance to the time we have to spend with the ones we love.
TheWife was really happy and the kids had a good time. It had been awhile since they saw UncleR.
I know I don’t always say how much I appreciate these moments, but it is always good to see them and spend time with them. I love to see the pictures Darcel and Charles post in blogs and on Facebook…miles and miles of smiles.
I had taken an unannounced break from writing and it actually felt pretty good…it wasn’t even planned, but I guess I needed it.
Although I haven’t been writing, I have been busy doing other things. I’m trying to keep my website and blog distinct from each other, making this one personal and the other strictly business…that shouldn’t be too hard huh? Of course after a little thought, this was my launching pad for where I am today. I’m sure I can come up with a good balance.
Here are three frames I put together and I’m pretty sure I know what is going in each one….they may not even be clocks….
Not counting the frames above, I’m about to start a custom clock for someone.
On another note, my veggies are coming along rather well…the bell peppers are getting huge and I’ve had a few tomatoes and they are pretty tasty. I’ll have to get updated pics soon.
That’s all I have for now….WhatrUWorkinOn?
Today is the first day to enter for the MyQuesMark Designer Clock giveaway. It is being held at The Mahogany Way, my daughter’s blog.
All the details are there, so hop on over to enter!
Tomorrow is the first day to get in on a 5×7 shadowbox MyQuesMark Designer Clock giveaway. You can’t enter here.
The giveaway is being held at The Mahogany Way, my daughter’s blog. She has been my biggest supporter and I couldn’t see having this giveaway anywhere else. Of course I’ll be looking elsewhere for future giveaways.
This giveaway is limited to those living in the Continental United States and family members are not eligible to enter.
I hand make each clock along with the clock face design.
The clock for this giveaway is a 5×7 shadowbox, a $34.95 value. The winner of the giveaway gets to choose which clock face design they want.
June 1st marks the ending of the first six months of 2012. Thinking ahead….I wonder what all of those superstitious people are gonna do about next year…..anyway, my mind goes to all of the resolutions that have been broken or never made it out of the gate. It’s been awhile since I’ve done the resolution things….very long time.
I penned the poster below November 12, 2011. I’d have to do a little more digging to see when it was first published on my blog or my CafePress website. It may sound cliche but I do get inspired when I read it. I wrote it in a way that whoever reads this, can apply it to themselves….the question at the end?….I ask myself, what have I done since the last time I read it. Sometimes I am so angry with me because I’ve missed easy ops, but I know there are more doors ahead. There are times when I muster a smile or two just knowing I am able to even try to pursue dreams. I frustrate myself by trying to do too much at one time….multi-multitasking. I love it when I get that giddy feeling.
I’m more determined than ever to reach for goals, achieve them and reach for more. I’m not going to wait until the beginning of the year to start my new year. Right now I feel as if I’m making that turn….you know the feeling….you’ve been on THAT road for such a long time you can tell that the scenery is starting to change. It’s such a good feeling.
I did edit the wording on this new poster…I took out the words “have to” on the third line and replaced them with the word “can” and did a little realignment with the rest.
I’m going to be posting pictures in a couple of weeks and I would very much your advice, opinion, input. I’m going to have a few small giveaways during the month of June so it would be a good idea to tell your friends to like my Facebook page. That’s a few of what’s up and coming….gonna ride this wave as far as it will take me.
If you’d like to see this in a different flavor you can go here.
I wasn’t able to sit and work on my new video like I thought I would but I finally got it finished tonight and although it still isn’t what I really wanted concerning the speed of the heart growing, I’m happy with the video.
The border in the image is my own hand doodle design in 3D of course. You’ll be seeing more of those.
I had new ideas come to me while finishing this one and I’m gonna get busy starting it before I turn in.
I hope you enjoy the video…..and the audio is my own mix.
…hey, if you like to write and think you can do it in 55 words…it’s a chance to get it published in their Love In Creativity Project.
Your time, mine~are hours
Feelings of passion in air
No one knows, save we
It is ours, we share
Hearts tell the tale,
No one knows
Thump thump thump
Sweat, sweet rose
Releasing fruit sensuous
Boilers steaming, hot
Warming presence felt
Even tho touch, is not
Deep sighs of breaths,
Touch of no caress
Difficulties in life can weigh heavily on the mind, body, spirit, and soul of anyone. For me it has been to the point of emotional drainage. Dealing with these and coming to grips has undoubtedly taken its toll but has not destroyed me although at times I have felt as if they have.
I have always been a firm believer in God although I have not been in His presence the way I once was and I’m sure that is one reason for my present state of being. Prayer has made its way back into my life and is making a big difference.
Many years ago when I was a member of New Life Worship Center, I prayed oh so many times about my marriage and how I so desired to have a loving relationship with TheWife again. When we first met, things were everything I wanted in a relationship, but that changed after we got married. We still had good times and I’m sure many can relate how changes take place after years of being together, but I also know that this in not the norm in many cases. Many people knew of my dilemma and I’m sure countless prayers went out on our behalf.
I am an emotional, caring and sensitive person. Passion is strong in my being. I so desired to have these a part of my marriage but it was not to be and I wondered if I would ever rekindle these in the marriage. I tried talking and doing whatever I could to have my prayers answered because I knew that praying alone would not bring this to fruition. After years of emptiness I gave up and realized I was not going to have the answer I was seeking. I was bitter. Not at God, because I knew that all prayer does not bring the answer we are looking for. I was bitter at TheWife. I wondered why she chose to take the route she did in not trying to keep any kind of passion between us. I was truly perplexed. What puzzled me during our time in church was the fact that she began to give me the impression that because we were in church, it was wrong to have sexual thoughts and desires. For example, if we were watching a movie that had sex scenes, she would make comments about how disgusting it was….what?! I couldn’t believe what I was hearing! I talked to her countless times but without success. It was as if she felt because she was in church it was taboo to even think that way. Sure we had what she thought was sex every now and again but far from what even came close to satisfying my needs. After awhile I felt it was pointless and made me feel even more despondent.
I know that it is not unusual for some people to lose there sex drive but I don’t feel that was the case here. My thoughts were and still are today that she just didn’t want to have sex with me, she kept me at arms length so as NOT to have that in our marriage. Why? I have a few guesses as to why (maybe in part 3?).
I can’t remember the last time we had a long passionate kiss or loving embrace. My heart weighs heavy and I’m sure you may be wondering why in the world would I stay in a situation like this and I wonder also.
When we got back together, I thought things would be better than they were before and that we would have a relationship that would resemble anything close to what I dream of. She seems to be content with the way things are and would be happy to have a sexless, passionless life together. I’m far from being dead in body, mind, spirit and desires of the heart. I want and need to have the touch of a woman that would take my breath away. I long to have my ear nibbled. I want to have a woman’s hand to momentarily stroke or squeeze my butt to let me know that I still have it goin’ on. When I look in the mirror I see a man… a real man….not out of shape. Sure I’ve aged but at almost 58 years old, still desirable.
I’m not bitter at God, but I have asked…why Lord? What have I done to deserve this emptiness?
I’m sure you can tell in my comments lately concerning TheWife that I’m not happy and I seem to be bashing her but I also know that it is and has been up to me to do something about it. Saying that, I have to say this….because I believe in God, I also believe in the vows I took when I got married. I believe in family. But I also believe I deserve better because I gave my all.
Is this what I get for being such a caring person?….
I know some of you say…fool…what are you still doing there? I have asked that same question.
Lord, I know you are able to change anything and I also know that sometimes the answer is no….what to do….what to do.