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Him n Her

Many people think, at the cusp of a relationship, it will be all hearts and roses.

Sure the beginning for some if not all, is just that.

Hearts aflutter, butterfly stomachs, star gazed eyes, sweaty palms and minty breaths.

Then there are times when you just don’t know which direction

the relationship is going.

Swoop Arrows

You can’t seem to agree on anything, nor can either of you head in the same direction.

Being on the same page is out of the question. Hormones and testosterone bouncing of the walls,

oozing through pores and doing everything but meshing in unity.

And so it goes, except…..

……sometimes things can really get ugly.

Confusion

Oh, you thought is was bad before? Well just hang on tight because now confusion sets in to a point of

confusion and hands get thrown into the air as if to say…I give up! Not only are you going opposite ways,

but you’re blindly making choices that make no sense other than to get back at the

other or just to be mean….oh yeaaah!!!

It’s just a cluster at this point.

Then something happens that maybe no one expected or hoped it would.

InTheMiddle

You find yourselves meeting in the middle with compromise.

All is not lost after all.

Love is still in the air…really. What happened after the love at first sight

and after the turmoil is what was always there in the midst of confusion.

The middle, the center, the firm foundation that started it all.

Hearts filled with love.

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Relationships are like jobs. You have to work them with every tick of time.

Now…..#whatruworkinon

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Love IS Hard.

Love IS hard but it is the only glue that bonds a relationship through the moments that are trying, for one or both in love. I’m sure thoughts and feelings of is it really worth it enter any relationship. That is only answered in the heart. How much can it take? How long does it sustain strength to endure…ensure…it will have what it desires, needs, wants in fulfillment and satisfaction.

Tenderly strong is the heart. Powerfully weak as well. Baffling it is by the decisions made because of it. It is that organ tied so in touch with that emotion called love….that feeling….embedded by the Master of love.

So fragile it is in the center of it all…in body and relationships.

All it wants?…to be loved. It’s that asking too much?

http://whatruorkinon.com/2013/04/12/want-of-true-love/

Valentines Day

Valentines Day is next month and will be here before you know it. If you haven’t noticed the link to my CafePress store is gone from my sidebar and that is because I have closed it. 

I’m focusing my efforts now into my Etsy Shop which is now open. I currently have three items and working on another as of this moment but stopped so I could get this message out. I will do my best to keep you updated when new items are added. I will add a link to my Etsy Shop on the sidebar soon.

As mentioned earlier, Valentines Day is approaching and many of you are familiar with The Bottomless Heart I designed a couple of years ago. That is the first card in my shop for Valentines Day but can be given for other occasions as well such as anniversary, birthday or just because. 

I made some changes from the original design which are more simplistic. It still features the story line behind the design of the heart which is your expression of love and time shared together, with the one you love.

Here is a photo of the card’s front. Please visit my Etsy Shop to see the rest.

  

It’s A Start

The last thing I said in yesterday’s post was, what to do…what to do. I guess never giving up is one thing. When I got home from work, TheWife and I talked. It had nothing to do with what I have been posting about but it was talk that made me feel as if there is hope.


That’s the amazing thing about life….you never know what to expect at times. There were no fireworks, flashing lights or anything like that. It was as simple as can be, but it was genuine. I soaked it up like a sponge. I’m not saying that this is the beginning of what I have been hoping for….what I am saying is there was something in the air…it felt good.


What we did talk about had a lot to do with the future. We watched TV had some laughs and talked a bit more in between.


It’s not much, but….It’s A Start.

Let Me Explain: Part 2

Difficulties in life can weigh heavily on the mind, body, spirit, and soul of anyone. For me it has been to the point of emotional drainage. Dealing with these and coming to grips has undoubtedly taken its toll but has not destroyed me although at times I have felt as if they have. 


I have always been a firm believer in God although I have not been in His presence the way I once was and I’m sure that is one reason for my present state of being. Prayer has made its way back into my life and is making a big difference. 


Many years ago when I was a member of New Life Worship Center, I prayed oh so many times about my marriage and how I so desired to have a loving relationship with TheWife again. When we first met, things were everything I wanted in a relationship, but that changed after we got married. We still had good times and I’m sure many can relate how changes take place after years of being together, but I also know that this in not the norm in many cases. Many people knew of my dilemma and I’m sure countless prayers went out on our behalf. 


I am an emotional, caring and sensitive person. Passion is strong in my being. I so desired to have these a part of my marriage but it was not to be and I wondered if I would ever rekindle these in the marriage. I tried talking and doing whatever I could to have my prayers answered because I knew that praying alone would not bring this to fruition. After years of emptiness I gave up and realized I was not going to have the answer I was seeking. I was bitter. Not at God, because I knew that all prayer does not bring the answer we are looking for. I was bitter at TheWife. I wondered why she chose to take the route she did in not trying to keep any kind of passion between us. I was truly perplexed. What puzzled me during our time in church was the fact that she began to give me the impression that because we were in church, it was wrong to have sexual thoughts and desires. For example, if we were watching a movie that had sex scenes, she would make comments about how disgusting it was….what?! I couldn’t believe what I was hearing! I talked to her countless times but without success. It was as if she felt because she was in church it was taboo to even think that way. Sure we had what she thought was sex every now and again but far from what even came close to satisfying my needs. After awhile I felt it was pointless and made me feel even more despondent. 


I know that it is not unusual for some people to lose there sex drive but I don’t feel that was the case here. My thoughts were and still are today that she just didn’t want to have sex with me, she kept me at arms length so as NOT to have that in our marriage. Why? I have a few guesses as to why (maybe in part 3?). 


I can’t remember the last time we had a long passionate kiss or loving embrace. My heart weighs heavy and I’m sure you may be wondering why in the world would I stay in a situation like this and I wonder also.


When we got back together, I thought things would be better than they were before and that we would have a relationship that would resemble anything close to what I dream of. She seems to be content with the way things are and would be happy to have a sexless, passionless life together. I’m far from being dead in body, mind, spirit and desires of the heart. I want and need to have the touch of a woman that would take my breath away. I long to have my ear nibbled. I want to have a woman’s hand to momentarily stroke or squeeze my butt to let me know that I still have it goin’ on. When I look in the mirror I see a man… a real man….not out of shape. Sure I’ve aged but at almost 58 years old, still desirable.


I’m not bitter at God, but I have asked…why Lord? What have I done to deserve this emptiness?


I’m sure you can tell in my comments lately concerning TheWife that I’m not happy and I seem to be bashing her but I also know that it is and has been up to me to do something about it. Saying that, I have to say this….because I believe in God, I also believe in the vows I took when I got married. I believe in family. But I also believe I deserve better because I gave my all.


Is this what I get for being such a caring person?….


I know some of you say…fool…what are you still doing there? I have asked that same question. 


Lord, I know you are able to change anything and I also know that sometimes the answer is no….what to do….what to do.         

I Hear Stars

The moon hears the stars in the
Outers of space
Speaking, asking, wondering
Why it is so giving of itself

Humbled, the moon speaks and
Says, shouldn’t I not be free
To give? As my brilliance in light
Is freely given by one of your own?

Yes, but we watch in your travels
You are swiped and scooped
Until you are visible not
Until you come again…

The stars, wanting to know more
Await the moon’s return
And true to its form
Its presence is shone

They ask the question anew
Where is it you go?
Is it painful we ask?
When you go where you go

From the scoops upon 
Scoops upon scoops
time over time
As long as your birth

You do this, you give
You never complain
Not so much as an
Ouch!

Again the moon speaks,
It is no bother be assured
No harm is done
It is really my pleasure

You see, the people
Seem to like what transpires
Look forward to it they do
On this planet mostly blue

So as I partner with you
Closet star who gives light
I take what you give
So to shine big and bright

No reasons are needed
Explanations none too
It is but a small wonder
In this vastness of wonders

I will do this, and too will you
Until there is light no more.
Now, we have light
No worries, just wonders

This is my entry for One Shot Wednesday

Puzzles Pieces

When a cake is prepared for baking, different ingredients are brought together to make one item. The same goes for so many other things we use or consume…cars, homes, cookies, televisions, salads, phones, you name it.

Depending on what the item is, one missing ingredient could have an effect on the outcome or performance of such item. 

A puzzle is many pieces, when brought together, make up one item…usually a picture. You know how it is when a puzzle has a missing piece or two….it’s almost complete.

Our wants or needs, works in much the same way. If there is something of great desire that has to be just right, the feeling of complete makes it a finished item.  

If the feeling of something isn’t right exists, that incomplete feeling makes it an unfinished item. 

The same can be said for relationships, love, the need to be a finished item. 

It may sometimes go unnoticed as a puzzle piece, missing in a spot that could make the item appear to be complete. 

Life and love…the pieces are all there, they sometimes take a little more work to find the right pieces to make the item complete.    
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