See Things For What They Can Be

Letting Go

Over the years, I had accumulated a vast array of old mail and personal papers that I had intended to shred with a shredder I purchased many years ago. These papers had grown to several boxes and because I didn’t do what I had bought the shredder for in the first place, found their way into closet space. They had also become a regular part of our moving routine as if they were furniture.

You see, I absolutely refused to just throw these papers into the trash. Addresses, phone numbers, social security numbers, tax returns….I was not going to trust this information was not going to end up in the wrong place….that’s why I bought the shredder, right? Oh, I did use the shredder when I first purchased it, and several times thereafter. But the mass of junk mail and docs and notes, and whatever else with our info on it continued to pile.

Over the past 2 months, I sat myself down in front of the television, making sure their was nothing on that I was really interested in so as not to distract me and piece by piece, junk mail by junk mail, box by box ridding myself of this unwanted pile of old.

There were papers dating back to 1997. Old tax returns, vehicle maintenance, credit card apps, you name it. I even came across an old check what seemed to be worth over $2400 dated 2011. I’m pretty sure it wasn’t a real check or there was a catch in order to cash it in the first place, which is why it sat uncashed. But just for giggles, I took it to the bank….it was actually drawn on my present banking institute….to see if it was a valid check. They told me because of the date I would have to take it back to the issuer of the check. I took it back home, go online and the company is still in business. I call and explain that I have a check, not telling them the amount, but I did give the date of said check. I was transferred to someone’s voice mail and I knew then and there all I had was a trophy in my hands. I wasn’t disappointed because I knew I didn’t cash the check for a reason, in the first place.

As I said, over a 2 month period I took all of the old papers to my job and put them into our shredding bin that we are able to use, to finally get rid of a ‘hang nail’ so to speak. It really felt good knowing that was done and now I can use my personal shredder at home to stay on top of unwanted papers.

Sometimes we hold onto old ‘things’ in our everyday living….not paper….that accumulates and hangs around until they become piles of unneeded debris. We can’t or won’t let go. But holding on to those things prevents us from achieving so many new accomplishments that helps us to grow, to become better in life.

It’s just a matter of having a made up mind and taking ‘things’ to the shredder.

Him n Her In The Clouds

Romance in the clouds

Him n Her InTheClouds

Where Art Thou?

Findest thine the soul of self
Buried in dept of solitudes
Where thou art in peace of mind
Tranquil to heart’s beat to life

The somber breeze passes not
Yet restest upon thine being
As forest’s leaves sing praise
Symphonic in combined pieces

From the moon to stars
The outers of space
Crickets chirp to night’s delight
To darkness that is truly not

Ocean’s seas pondereth waves
To orchestrate a solstice peace
Yet another player for thine
To bury thyself in solitudes grace

The Ups And Downs

Struggling through the ups and downs of everyday life can be exhausting, exhilarating, eventful, and rewarding…just to name a few ways of describing the twists and turns that have come, gone and also awaits us. Getting knocked down by circumstances in which we have no control can suck valuable reserves from our very being, taking with it the desire to continue on with our ventures, our goals, fulfilling our dreams.

I think it is important to hold onto dreams that some would say to lay aside and move on. I say move on with those dreams for the encouragement of hope. Many businesses today have gone through exactly that in reaching what they have achieved thus far. Some will continue to struggle to stay afloat and in doing so, changes are on the horizon. For some, success comes so easy, it’s as if they don’t even have to try.

I envy those who don’t give up so easily. Those that choose to take a breath and collect themselves and get their bearings again to find that direction, the path that will lead them to that place of achievement, the threshold of success.

I guess you can say that I have taken that breath for a moment or two….to get my bearings….to see the sunrise and feel it’s warmth. To see the hope that are my dreams. The dreams I didn’t allow to stay behind when the mountains were too wide to venture around but seemed to steep to climb, but was my only path while the storms raged during my climb. Well, maybe it wasn’t that bad…nonetheless…

We are not alone with the bumps in the road.

I have a new follower on my blog today and I went to her blog to see what she was up to and read this post that to me, was captivating. The name of her blog is Honey and the Baker. I found it to be an encouraging read. I know many people are on roller coaster rides in life, but this post came to me just as I was thinking of the ups and downs of my past few months. So at least from that post, I can relate to the Baker. I’m sure is going to be just fine.

So now, I am getting my groove on again and looking to get my brand going with some changes on the way. I can’t allow my long hours at work to be a deterrent anymore. I have to get past that. I’m not alone. I have my dreams with me.

I would love to have you check up on me to see my progression.

#whatruworkinon

All The Same

WE’RE ALL THE SAME

AllTheSame

BUT DIFFERENT

Relationships

Him n Her

Many people think, at the cusp of a relationship, it will be all hearts and roses.

Sure the beginning for some if not all, is just that.

Hearts aflutter, butterfly stomachs, star gazed eyes, sweaty palms and minty breaths.

Then there are times when you just don’t know which direction

the relationship is going.

Swoop Arrows

You can’t seem to agree on anything, nor can either of you head in the same direction.

Being on the same page is out of the question. Hormones and testosterone bouncing of the walls,

oozing through pores and doing everything but meshing in unity.

And so it goes, except…..

……sometimes things can really get ugly.

Confusion

Oh, you thought is was bad before? Well just hang on tight because now confusion sets in to a point of

confusion and hands get thrown into the air as if to say…I give up! Not only are you going opposite ways,

but you’re blindly making choices that make no sense other than to get back at the

other or just to be mean….oh yeaaah!!!

It’s just a cluster at this point.

Then something happens that maybe no one expected or hoped it would.

InTheMiddle

You find yourselves meeting in the middle with compromise.

All is not lost after all.

Love is still in the air…really. What happened after the love at first sight

and after the turmoil is what was always there in the midst of confusion.

The middle, the center, the firm foundation that started it all.

Hearts filled with love.

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Relationships are like jobs. You have to work them with every tick of time.

Now…..#whatruworkinon

Decisions

QuesMark Thinking

Decision making can be exhaustively taxing

Draining mindful resources to the brink of disillusion

Not in vain for purposeful want in hopes

Ideas which shine as bright as explosive stars

Creating anew that which is greater than before

The wonders of wandering to distant in mind

Pleasurable visions unseen in hand

Breathtaking and lost to the moment

Culminating to fruition in time

Who Noticed?

I can’t believe I have gone five months to the day since my last post. No, I didn’t plan a comeback on the exact date for this post to happen. I was curious to see when my last post was published so I stopped for a second to find out. But….who noticed? I’m sure I lost a few followers during this time span, but I also gained some. I wondered who would follow me even after they saw the date of my last post…or did they? It could have been a link that brought them here and that was enough for them to see what I may have to offer.

Did you notice that I had “disappeared” from the face of blogging for (in the blogging realm) an eternity? Did you wonder why my presence was nonexistent? So many times I sat, wanting to peck away at these keys to tell my story. Did I not have anything to say? Nothing to report? I’m not sure if I have the answer to those questions. One thing I do know I had….time.

Since the death of my 43 year old nephew from a heart attack last year in July, and losing my 2 oldest brothers to prostate cancer, my oldest one year and my second oldest the following year, it was time to take stock in myself to see where I was physically. Yes I know many people are able to continue writing and keep up with their social networks no matter what the circumstance, but I didn’t. I’m not going to try to explain away the why’s or why not’s pertaining to my absence, but I will give some insight.

For some time, I had been working part time and I was able to get more done with the extra time I had. When the opportunity presented itself for a full time position, I couldn’t pass that up. I had no idea at the time it would be as demanding of my time as it has come to be. I’m not complaining about that….just stating the facts. My work days start getting out of bed at 5:30 in the morning and not getting home at times before 6:30 or 7 in the evening. Although my job status has changed from the warehouse to the office, I’m still mobile to a great degree which requires me to make several trips out to the warehouse for different reasons. My steps add up to 2 to 5 miles a day…at work alone…not counting any other steps that add to my day. I’m ordering parts, searching for parts, pulling parts, receiving parts, shipping parts to other parts of the country to our other warehouses. It can be exhausting, but also rewarding. I really like my job, but it does wear me down at times.

Even though my mind feels young and I still act like I’m a twenty year old, my body reminds me of the aging process. I have to remind myself that this body is not as vibrant as it used to be…I need to slow it down. The cause of my brother’s deaths was alarming for me. Saying that, it still took awhile for me to get myself checked. The cause of my nephew’s death was equally alarming. A few days before he died, we were all at a family reunion in Cleveland, Oh and he looked good…no indications of ill health from what I could see. I met his children for the first time and we were having memorable moments…pictures being taken. stories being told and buckets being filled with laughter. I was at work when my mom called to give me the news a few days after arriving home from the reunion. Devastating. My boss wouldn’t let me drive home so he and my former boss were kind enough to get me there, one driving my car and the other followed in another. I appreciated that.

It was time. Time for me to do what I had put off for far too long. It had been years since I was seen by a doctor on regular visits. My blood pressure was high but not off the charts, but high enough to cause concern…160’s over lower to mid 90’s. Of course he asked the usual family history questions and I told him about my brothers and my nephew…and my father who also died from prostate cancer. Well that was enough for him to hear. I’m now on BP meds and my blood pressure is down to a manageable level, but still not where I would like for it to be. I’ve done self checks for reading of 140’s over lower 90’s and the doctor says that that is ok because there are some things I can do to help bring it down even more like eliminating some things that I eat and doing some exercise.

Now, my PSA levels were on the high end (0-4 is normal) concerning my prostate (mine was 9.6) so he sent me to a Urologist to get checked out. He (urologist) recommended a biopsy. That was done this past December and the results came back in my favor….no signs of any cancer. He said the elevated PSA levels were likely due to the enlargement of my prostate, which is normal for men as we age. So I’m taking medication to shrink the prostate which in turn will help my urine flow. Oh…did I not mention the fact that I was beginning to have trouble with that? Guys, if you’re not aware, when the prostate becomes enlarged it chokes the urethra which cuts the flow of the extraction of urine….not good! Get yourself checked!!

So this is where I am right now. I want to get back to blogging and also writing, designing and whatever else lands on my plate. I’m not gonna say I’m coming back like gang busters, but I am coming back.

Did you miss me?

One more thing…..#whatruworkinon

Just Because….

                                           Just because…

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                                              … it’s there.

Samuel leading the way

                                                                Samuel leading the way

My View

This was my view as we peddled along

BeachHorseRides

Spotted some horse riders enjoying a stroll along the beach

BeachRideBackSeat

Caught my daughter taking a selfie in the back seat

BeachRideSamuel

This shot was all about Samuel

Facial Expressions

I love this one for the different facial expressions…

who’s more excited?

BeachHorsePetting

On the way back it was a stop for horse petting

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Then it was time for fun in the sand

BeachChillin

BeachTimeOut

And some time to relax

BeachSelfie

Kiah

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Ava

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Samuel

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Darcel and Clarice

BeachNeptune

And of course there’s Neptune

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