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Good News

As I mentioned in my previous post, I had a post op follow up with my Cardiologist yesterday. The good news is he gave me the all clear to go back to work. I knew he would but actually hearing the words and holding that paper in my hands made it so much better.

After I left there, I went to my job to finalize my return to work. I had to call HR and fax the paperwork. Karen needed to know if I had any restrictions pertaining to my duties and I told her I’m not allowed to lift anything heavier than 10 lbs. So if lifting a pen or moving a mouse on my desk and shuffling paper or tapping keys on a keyboard counts…I’m well within the perameters.

I’ll tell you what may be my biggest challenge…staying awake at certain times during the day. Right now I get sleepy sometimes late morning or mid afternoon. It will probably take some fight within to overcome and I know it will not be easy. I’m already trying to make the adjustment but I’m losing the battle. I have to remember that I am still healing and this need to sleep will be with me for awhile.

So am I going back to work too soon? Not at all, because the longer I stay home the more I fall into this routine that is sleeping whenever. Once I start working more I will become stronger to make the adjustment.

The operation I had is very commonplace these days, but for me this is major. If I didn’t have the surgery, I would have developed health issues in the future that would be difficult to overcome as I grow older. I am truly thankful that God brought me through all of this and allowing me to heal at this rapid pace.

The doctors are telling me I am in good health. My heart is strong, my lungs are clear and my blood pressure is good. Still, I know anything can happen in life, no matter what foods we eat or how much we exercise. I am blessed to have this opportunity for new life and I hope I can live up to the task.

Letting Go

Over the years, I had accumulated a vast array of old mail and personal papers that I had intended to shred with a shredder I purchased many years ago. These papers had grown to several boxes and because I didn’t do what I had bought the shredder for in the first place, found their way into closet space. They had also become a regular part of our moving routine as if they were furniture.

You see, I absolutely refused to just throw these papers into the trash. Addresses, phone numbers, social security numbers, tax returns….I was not going to trust this information was not going to end up in the wrong place….that’s why I bought the shredder, right? Oh, I did use the shredder when I first purchased it, and several times thereafter. But the mass of junk mail and docs and notes, and whatever else with our info on it continued to pile.

Over the past 2 months, I sat myself down in front of the television, making sure their was nothing on that I was really interested in so as not to distract me and piece by piece, junk mail by junk mail, box by box ridding myself of this unwanted pile of old.

There were papers dating back to 1997. Old tax returns, vehicle maintenance, credit card apps, you name it. I even came across an old check what seemed to be worth over $2400 dated 2011. I’m pretty sure it wasn’t a real check or there was a catch in order to cash it in the first place, which is why it sat uncashed. But just for giggles, I took it to the bank….it was actually drawn on my present banking institute….to see if it was a valid check. They told me because of the date I would have to take it back to the issuer of the check. I took it back home, go online and the company is still in business. I call and explain that I have a check, not telling them the amount, but I did give the date of said check. I was transferred to someone’s voice mail and I knew then and there all I had was a trophy in my hands. I wasn’t disappointed because I knew I didn’t cash the check for a reason, in the first place.

As I said, over a 2 month period I took all of the old papers to my job and put them into our shredding bin that we are able to use, to finally get rid of a ‘hang nail’ so to speak. It really felt good knowing that was done and now I can use my personal shredder at home to stay on top of unwanted papers.

Sometimes we hold onto old ‘things’ in our everyday living….not paper….that accumulates and hangs around until they become piles of unneeded debris. We can’t or won’t let go. But holding on to those things prevents us from achieving so many new accomplishments that helps us to grow, to become better in life.

It’s just a matter of having a made up mind and taking ‘things’ to the shredder.

All The Same

WE’RE ALL THE SAME

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BUT DIFFERENT

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How Life Is

From time to time, my eyes search the skies

If I bend an ear, I can hear the cries

It is for me to wonder, as I am perplexed

How life is at times, as real as it gets

The violence and anger portrayed day to day

It is for revenge, it is for justice some say

I am truely beholden, this way that I live

It is but one life given, for me to give

Round and round, the cycle of life bestows

Like our earth, round the sun it goes

Event after one, another continues onward

You would think lessons learned, from outside inward

Time goes by round the world as it turns

The violence unending as hearts fire burns

Is it for justice? Is it peace?

I continue to wonder, will it ever, ever cease

Thanks Mom

I called my mom early this morning to wish her a Happy Mother’s Day. She said I was the first to reach her and that it was ok because she had to get up anyway. The times we talk as usual lead to other topics. I’m going to Ohio in July and it will be good to see her.

Like a lot of moms, my mom made sure I knew how to take care of myself, like cooking, cleaning, laundry. Of course as a teenager you’re not into learning those necessities of life. I don’t do too bad these days….thanks to mom.

It is always a treat catching up with my mom. We laugh and talk and she sounds younger than ever. I still get good advice and she is good at listening.

My mom has always been a big part of my life and I will never take that for granted. I often look back on her guidance and know today that raising children is no easy task. Love, gratitude, thankful, appreciation, are just grains of sand in describing how much I appreciate my mom….love you mom!

Bare With Me

Bare with me….I’m not always on top of my game.

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All I Did Was Love You

There was a time when moments were good

A time I thought I understood

Funny I never heard the words as I look back

I just knew you and I were on track

I don’t know what happened ¬†along the way

Was it something I said that made you stray?

I am disheartened to say the least

How you turned into such a beast

Your bitterness like a knife run through

We were one, but now we are two

The monster deep within you surfaced

The love I once knew was now misplaced

You took my love in more than one piece

As my beating heart did all but cease

You took this man and made it a shell

Empty and void without voice to tell

Of the bitterness bestowed to me

Warranted not from what I see

My love for you was tried and true

Count the ways, All I Did Was Love You

They Come and Go Faster

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As I get older, the years definitely come and go faster and faster. I’m going back almost two years with the image in this post. The one above was created February 10th of the year indicated in the design. I have used the MyQuesMark design in so many ways the length of this post would scroll almost forever if I were to include them.

As I read this particular design, it hit me pretty hard because I know that I allowed some things to distract me and take me out of my game plan. Towards the end of this year 2013, my emotions were at the innermost depths of frustration fed despair. I do know that all is not lost…that light shines even in the darkest moments.

I’m ready for the new year and what awaits.

No matter how positive you try to be, bad things happen….I choose to acknowledge that. Some see that as having a negative attitude….I see it as reality. There is strength in failure and mistakes, falling down. The weakness is staying down.

I’m battered and bruised…and I wear my scars proudly. God won’t put anything before me that I cannot handle. He never said that some things won’t hurt or bring me to my knees….maybe that what He wants….me on my knees.

Loose Ends

While I was away from posting and moving, I found that my blog here was offline due to a domain issue (not with WordPress). I was sure my domain was good well into 2014 but for some reason I was shut down. I am now back up and running but I still have to look into what happened because now, even though very minimal, money is involved and I don’t think I should be out any at this time. But it’s not a big issue for me and I will find out what happened.

For now I am focused on returning to the task at hand, and that is posting and designing. Right now I am making sure my social media are all up to date before I dive into posting. With moving, and Christmas approaching, working a few more hours than I was a year ago this time I haven’t managed my time the way I would like. The extra hours at work are a blessing, especially this time of year. A year ago I was barely getting 20 hours a week.

My art software has been quiet but my mind has been going at full speed. I’m not sure what to do with my Etsy store. With my website Mind-ful Things, I don’t see the need to keep my Etsy store especially when I sell everything at my Mind-ful Things site. I thought about dropping some things from my site and keeping them on Etsy but that means maintaining three sites which would include MindfulThings2, which I have integrated with the main site. I would also have to pay to list on Etsy (not linking to Etsy because my listings have expired). I’ll be working on these issues and will come to a decision soon.

Well that’s all I have for now. I was looking for a photo to drop into this post and came across this one….

By The Way

Taken in 2011

Do I still look like this?

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