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First Week Back

My first week back to work was more than I thought it would be in areas I hadn’t anticipated beginning with I thought I would get sleepy throughout the day. To my surprise I worked through with no problems pertaining to staying awake. I don’t know if it was the atomsphere of the workplace or just being more active. Whatever the reason….

Ok, so Monday I sit at my desk to clock in and start my day, only to find out I can’t. Apparently I wasn’t put back into the system until Monday which meant I wouldn’t be able work at my station until Tuesday. Fortunately there was a pc that would allow me get work done. I felt out of place without my bookmarks and shortcuts but I managed.

So I get through Monday and Tuesday I’m back at my familiar place. I was feeling more at home and felt as if I was getting things done. The one thing that was cumbersome for me the first few days was dealing with the pain. It was more than I thought it would be but as each day passed, the pain decreased. I believe getting back to work was the best thing that could have happened to me physically speaking. Right now I feel like I could do anything, although I know that’s not the case. Driving more I’m sure has something to do with it as well.

Now getting back to sleep for a moment. For some reason, I’m not sleeping through the night since going back to work. First couple of nights I was up at 3 a.m. to drain the fluid and I could not get back to sleep until it was close to the alarm going off at 5. The past few nights have been different but just as bad. I don’t know what this is about but I’m hoping it doesn’t last.

Overall I’m feeling good and should be riding my bike pretty soon. I’ll be glad when I’m able to start my workouts again, but will settle for riding my bike.

Each new day is a blessing to me and I’m not taking them for granted.

Good News

As I mentioned in my previous post, I had a post op follow up with my Cardiologist yesterday. The good news is he gave me the all clear to go back to work. I knew he would but actually hearing the words and holding that paper in my hands made it so much better.

After I left there, I went to my job to finalize my return to work. I had to call HR and fax the paperwork. Karen needed to know if I had any restrictions pertaining to my duties and I told her I’m not allowed to lift anything heavier than 10 lbs. So if lifting a pen or moving a mouse on my desk and shuffling paper or tapping keys on a keyboard counts…I’m well within the perameters.

I’ll tell you what may be my biggest challenge…staying awake at certain times during the day. Right now I get sleepy sometimes late morning or mid afternoon. It will probably take some fight within to overcome and I know it will not be easy. I’m already trying to make the adjustment but I’m losing the battle. I have to remember that I am still healing and this need to sleep will be with me for awhile.

So am I going back to work too soon? Not at all, because the longer I stay home the more I fall into this routine that is sleeping whenever. Once I start working more I will become stronger to make the adjustment.

The operation I had is very commonplace these days, but for me this is major. If I didn’t have the surgery, I would have developed health issues in the future that would be difficult to overcome as I grow older. I am truly thankful that God brought me through all of this and allowing me to heal at this rapid pace.

The doctors are telling me I am in good health. My heart is strong, my lungs are clear and my blood pressure is good. Still, I know anything can happen in life, no matter what foods we eat or how much we exercise. I am blessed to have this opportunity for new life and I hope I can live up to the task.

My Day Off

My day off from work this week and unlike so many other days like these, I have chosen to actually follow through physically, what my mind has been wanting me to do. I’m writing. I believe this is the longest spell of silence I’ve had since my blogging experience began. So many times since my last post, I opened my dashboard, looked at the stats and clicked the add a post button. Only to close the page and walk away. I just couldn’t follow through with the swing, or make it across the goal line. I do have things I could have written that might be of interest to you, but right now you may be more interested as to why I have been so silent.

Am I feeling sorry for myself? Just the opposite. I’m really pissed off at myself for allowing this to get to this point. I love writing, whether it’s a quick post, poetry, something about my life or life in general. Posting some of my artwork that I still want to improve on and to promote as my own brand, and of course that can’t happen if I’m sitting on my hands.

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See that face in the frame? That is how perplexed I feel as to why this is happening. I do have answers and at the same time, I have no clue. I do know I need to break away from this duldrum (not sure if I’m using the correct word) that has gripped me like Charlie Brown’s dark cloud.

I know exercising and eating healthier can influence how we feel physically and emotionally. Saying that, I haven’t been able to workout like I had been because of a health issue that has come to light. I’m not ready to bring it to the forefront on this blog at the moment. I will say that surgery is planned after the first of the year. If your thinking this is the reason for my silence….it ain’t so because it was during the middle of the silence I became aware of my condition. I do plan to document the before and after, maybe for my own benefit.

So because I haven’t been able to workout, I have gained some extra pounds that I can’t wait to shed. I have indulged in some foods (more like snacking) that I could really do without, but I am getting back on track. My mid-section has taken on the bulge. I want to lose at least 5 pounds before the surgery, a goal I believe is realistic without exercise.

I’ve had some tests done over the past couple of months to determine the extent of my condition and what will be needed to get my health to a healthier state. The doctors tell me I am really in good health aside from the fact I need surgery….that is good news.

We’ve come to our slow period at work which means they are keeping a close eye on the hours. Even with insurance, I’m looking at medical bills already but I’m not letting that get me depressed…down a little but not depressed.

Christmas is right around the corner and as an adult, I know what Christmas is really about. Personally, I could care less if I get a single gift. My gift right now is my daily gift from God with every breath I take. But I do have 3 grandchildren who view this time of year differently and understandably so. We will make sure they have a children’s Christmas.

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#My3Grands (photo courtesy of themahoganyway.com)

They grow so fast. There was a time when I could reach out and touch them and hear their laughter, the questions that only a child can ask with a straight face and the cries of pain or disappointment, but now we are states apart. I won’t lie….at my age, it’s nice to have peace and quiet, but I do miss them.

I don’t know if I answered any of the questions you may have as to why I haven’t been posting. There are some elements in my life I’m not totally happy about. Finances, or the lack thereof can bring anybody down. The world’s events that tops the newscasts on a daily basis….and the list goes on….but, even you know these aren’t the main reasons.

I’m generally upbeat and easy going. Laughing (at myself a lot) and making others around me laugh as well. When I do get down, I don’t stay down for long periods. I don’t know why I have allowed myself to stay away from this spot for so long.

I’m anxious to get back into the mix. I don’t want to be this silent anymore. I hope it lasts, but we all know that it’s up to me.

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I Love My New (Used) Bike

A couple of weekends ago, I was helping my boss move boxes at his place so that he can begin enjoying his man cave. In doing so, he had a 18 speed bike that was taking up space he no longer had a need or want for it.

It had been sitting in a garage for years but was still in good condition. The tires were dry and I knew the tubes would have to be replaced as well. Yesterday I did the front tire and tube. This morning I stopped at Walmart to pick up a few things and got the other tire and tube.

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After removing the old tire and tube, I saw that rust was on the inside of the rim.

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So a little elbow grease and a scrubby pad was in order.

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That didn’t take too long and before I knew it, it was all back together.

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It rides much better than I thought it would and I rode further than planned. I really like my new (used) bike.

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Now I have an after work stress burner!

Sleep

My sleep is not as I would like for it to be. I find myself sleeping when I would like to be awake and awake when I would like to be sleeping. I’m not sure why. I’m thinking of changing a couple of my things in my to do list, in order to break this routine I have fallen into. I could do some things now while I am awake, but I know I would be up until 2 or three in the morning even though I would be up at 5 to get ready for work. 

To do some of the things at this hour of the night would require the use of power tools at times…not a good time. If I were to pull up my designing software, I would get no sleep at all or I work until falling asleep at my PC.

I’m beginning to think I’m one of those people who slows down emotionally during the winter months. I never thought of myself as having that problem before, but I am getting older and I don’t consider myself as being old. I don’t act or work my age. It’s not that I’m trying to stay young…that’s just how I am. When I work, I work hard. When I’m with family and friends (I count my co-workers as friends) I like to laugh. The laughter of those around me makes me feel good.

I am concerned but not worried about my misdirected sleep and falling behind in some accomplishments but there will be a turnaround.

Loose Ends

While I was away from posting and moving, I found that my blog here was offline due to a domain issue (not with WordPress). I was sure my domain was good well into 2014 but for some reason I was shut down. I am now back up and running but I still have to look into what happened because now, even though very minimal, money is involved and I don’t think I should be out any at this time. But it’s not a big issue for me and I will find out what happened.

For now I am focused on returning to the task at hand, and that is posting and designing. Right now I am making sure my social media are all up to date before I dive into posting. With moving, and Christmas approaching, working a few more hours than I was a year ago this time I haven’t managed my time the way I would like. The extra hours at work are a blessing, especially this time of year. A year ago I was barely getting 20 hours a week.

My art software has been quiet but my mind has been going at full speed. I’m not sure what to do with my Etsy store. With my website Mind-ful Things, I don’t see the need to keep my Etsy store especially when I sell everything at my Mind-ful Things site. I thought about dropping some things from my site and keeping them on Etsy but that means maintaining three sites which would include MindfulThings2, which I have integrated with the main site. I would also have to pay to list on Etsy (not linking to Etsy because my listings have expired). I’ll be working on these issues and will come to a decision soon.

Well that’s all I have for now. I was looking for a photo to drop into this post and came across this one….

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Taken in 2011

Do I still look like this?

Home From Work

Traffic was thick on the way home…but I had to stop to pick up a few things before heading home. I decided to take my time and not let the rush hour get to me. Just before leaving work, it was very misty. You could tell it was sticking around or going to pick up steam, and I knew that would bring the rush hour to a crawl.

After arriving home, my daughter was leaving to run an errand. She asked me to cook the rice and green beans.

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The rice is on its way and the beans are too.

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This is safe stuff to cook.

This is how my evening is starting.

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